なんだかんだでさびしくなるのかな

あああああ。　オーストラリアの生活ももうすぐ終わりか。。。。。

さびしくなるよはっきり言って。だってさ、もうなんだかんだで、２年以上。２年と半年くらいいる。
大学の友達の多くはオーストラリアで会った人たちだし。さんざんオーストラリアはつまらないとか
何も無いとか、そういう風に文句をいいつつも、結局楽しんでたのかもしれない。

いざ、あともう少ししか時間がない。そう考えると、やっぱりさびしくなるのかな。。。
僕は１１月に日本に帰る。それで、２月の終わりまでオーストラリアに戻ってこない。
んで、オーストラリアで一学期過ごす。それは６月で終わりだ。

もし、カナダの大学オッケーが出たら、７月にはカナダに行くと思う。
だから、僕のオーストラリア生活は、今年の１ヶ月＋来年３ヶ月の合計４ヶ月しかない。
そう思うと、ものすごい短いと思わない？すごいさびしくなってきた。
なんだかんだで、オーストラリアは僕にとって大切な国。
もし僕がいま１８で、それでこれから新しい大学を選べる。そういうことになれば、
絶対にオーストラリアは僕の第一希望にはならない。
それでも、実際２年以上、何が会ったか。どんな人間に会ったか。
そういうことを考えていると、本当に僕の人生に色々大きな影響を与えたなと思う。
。。。僕がこの国から去る時、さびしくなるだろうな。ほんとうに。

やっぱり友達だよね。それがさびしい。
ずっと同じ友達と一緒に永遠といることはできない。
特に僕は海外にいく男だし、同じ場所に滞在しない人間だ。
i think it's going to be so sad if i leave this country.
i really don't want to say good bye to all of my friends here in Australia.
i met so many stupid people, but i met some great people too.
if i leave here, i would have to say good bye to them. then i cannot see them very often anymore.
right now, i see my friends all the time. same friends, everyday,i feel like it is a normal thing now. but again, when you lose something that you had normally...it is going to be very very sad. like the time i lost my hearings...i was devastated.

but i guess that's life. i would have to say good bye to many of my friends anyways... i think that's life. meet the great people...but in the end, say good bye.......

i am especially sad about my canadian buddy. he actually changed my life. he taught me so much things. and even though our ages are really different,,,like 10 years.... we can still get along well...he is the smartest guy i've ever met... and he is the one of the few people that i can trust in australia.......so i don't want to say good bye to him. but then again, i met so many great people in japan, and i had say good bye to them................ it was very sad. in fact, i wish i were still with them.... but it's life. it is not possible. but actually me and some of my friends from japan are still keeping in touch. e-mailing almost everyday...we are best friends...talk on skype or msn all the time... so it's possible to keep in touch with someone really close. so maybe i should not worry too much about it.

but...it's different to talk on somebody online...and face-to face...........

in fact, i am planning to go to Canada for study for 6months. but i can cancel it for staying in australia. but i may regret if i do that............aaahhh.



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by the way, i may be able to get a new girlfriend. she is from malaysia and i think we get along well. i think she may like me. at least she doesn't hate me. i asked her out to the lunch last sunday and we had a great time. i am planning to ask her out tomorrow actually...for just for a walk to the restaurant to buy a source. maybe at night. maybe i can hold her hands... within 3days i will make a move. and i am really positive that this time i will succeed. it's been a long time since i haven't had a girlfriend. more than 2years. Since i came to australia, there is nothing really happening to me regarding girls.some people showed me interested. but they were not my type... since i don't' get a girlfriend for ages, some people may thing i am gay. haha.lol anyways, that malaysian girl is very pretty and very thoughtful. i like her. i hope i will succeed.

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i will have the finals soon. so i'd better get back to study. i hate it. i don't have time to hang out with friends........ ahhhhh. annoying.